I remember a Pastor once telling me that he had only read one verse of scripture in the past 3 months. I was shocked.

Actually, it made me mad. My frustration stemmed from the fact that I believed Christians today were poorly prioritizing time for scripture reading.

After throwing my internal temper tantrum I recognized that while this Pastor was spending little time reading scripture, he was spending a lot of time living scripture.

I can’t count on both hands and feet the amount of extra curricular activities he spent his time doing in the name of Jesus, but a few examples are couples counseling, hospice chaplain, and leadership training.

All of these were “no pay” activities.

I came to realize that our priorities are personal, unique to us, and if we are living a life that follows the teachings of Jesus, they will be selfless.



I have trust issues.

Not so much in regards to other people, but in the authority of God.

I want so badly to take control of every situation and make the outcome one of my choosing. This struggle for self-control has led to turmoil in my heart, that has brought about much pain.

So my self-control is synonymously my self-affliction.

“In God, we trust” sounds great as a group but “In God I trust” is a much harder pill to swallow. Let me show you how that is so.

When your friend has lost a job and cannot provide for their family, you offer the peace of mind, that they must trust God to be their provider. However, when you lose your job and cannot provide for your own family, that peace of mind also includes panic and paranoia.

But I am working on this.

Last week I took a walk, closed my eyes, and mentally pictured myself through the power of the Holy Spirit, walking above the ground. Yes, I understand this defy’s the laws of physics.

But it didn’t take me walking above the ground for me to experience a greater peace of mind. Just the thought of this being possible, made me feel light on my feet.

Perhaps my trust in God was not strong enough to levitate, but it was a step in the right direction. It was a greater level of trust in Him that richly provides than I had felt before in my life.

Maybe we all need a little of this “training at a disadvantage” technique to elevate our trust in God. If you can trust him in something as wild as levitation, can you not trust him to make sure you have enough food on your plate?

So in the future, I am going to reach high, reach wide, and trust God for even the most unthinkable things to happen in my life. I believe this to be the true definition of manifestation.

While I am limited, Jesus gave me the gift of a limitless power in the Holy Spirit. I believe and put my trust in the Trinity, to exceed my own expectations.

“The heart of a man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” – Proverbs 16:9

Misaligned to the Will of God

This morning I took a walk down memory lane to a warehouse that my business leased back in 2008.

I happened to be in the area and felt that I would experience a defining moment when I reached my destination. Once I arrived, I took a breath in and allowed God to speak to me.

I’ll admit, I can be a little emotionally driven at times, looking for meaning in even the smallest of moments. However, I won’t apologize for it as in these moments is when I find myself speaking with God in an intimate way.

I did, in fact, receive a word from God and as always, He did it in a unique way.

I was met at the gate to the loading dock, by a man and his dog. Not expecting the dog, I kind of hustled past, since this warehouse is in an area of town where a loose dog is not necessarily a good thing.

So after collecting myself, I turned back around to pass the building again, and this time I felt the presence of God before me and the words entered my mind…

“He is aligned”

The man who now leased this warehouse had a “full” operation (to say the least) of giant metal frames that, to be honest, I’m not sure what they would be used for. The man was also in a very good mood and appeared to have his best friend (his dog) at his side, ready to start a hard but fulfilling days work.

This is quite different than my experience at this location since while I had big millionaire ambitions, I only ever used about 200 of the 5000 square feet of warehouse space.

While I was not yet a Christian, leasing this space took me on a 10-year journey where I professionally misaligned myself with God. The empty pursuit of money where I tried to be all things to all people.

If I can be honest for a second, It’s been exhausting trying to be someone I am not, and while I have peeled away many layers, my family still suffers from many of the past decisions I’ve made.

So when I heard “He is aligned” for the man with the dog, I also heard “You can be too.”

So upon hearing these words from God, I am going to be grateful for where He has me at this very moment. I will respect that it isn’t about “where I want to be” because if it was, then I would never be able to experience the joy of being “where He wants me to be.”




It is pretty easy to acknowledge when somebody is a “know it all.” meaning they have nothing to learn, from anyone else.

It is a little harder to determine if someone is an “own it all.” meaning everything they have belongs to them.

As Christian’s one of the least talked about subjects is the issue of “ownership.” I could quickly summarize this blog post into three words by saying…You own nothing, but that would go in one ear and out the other.

Psalm 24:1 puts it beautifully “The earth is the LORD’s and the fullness thereof, the world and those who dwell therein,”

So why then do we say “my” so often when it comes to the things which do not belong to us? What if instead of saying “my car” we said something along the lines of “let’s walk over to God’s car”?

Or to pull on the heartstrings a little more what if when it came to our children we told a friend how God’s children were growing up so quickly?

Just writing these words in this manner gives me this layer of comfort knowing that these children I am raising are God’s, but it seems so impractical in the reality of this world.

So I suppose that while the inner workings of this world may utilize a language that requires us to state ownership when communicating with others, I do believe we can seize opportunities to glorify God by recognizing that what we have are gifts from God.

We can do this by…

  • Giving gratitude to God for that which we steward
  • Having conversations consistently with Christians about what belongs to him
  • Changing your communication with yourself on what belongs to him. ie: Today I will teach these three of God’s children how to plant seeds.

I believe that by keeping stewardship over what we have in the front of our minds will cause God to rejoice and it will give us a great sense of the joy in holding responsibility for these precious gifts from God.




Desiring Our Triune God

We Believe in God but only walk in his shallows.
We follow Jesus but keep a good distance between him and us.
We speak of the Holy Spirit but do not understand that with which we speak of.

The Holy Trinity is not just something we acknowledge. It involves (but not limited too) a three-point process, we must…

1. Seek to explore at depths we have never seen.
(Reference Proverbs 3:5)
2. Remove all that slows down the speed at which travel so you may walk in light rather darkness.
(Reference John 8:12)
3. Be open and willing to letting the Spirit work.
(Reference Galatians 5:22)

You will never fully understand God while on this earth but the joy is in the journey of that understanding. Exploring the beauty of his creation will lead to discoveries that feel like you are once again a child, as they unwrap anticipated Christmas presents.

These discoveries come quicker when we begin to let go of this world and give more room in our lives to Jesus. He wants to give you more of his love but we need to give him space and invite him in, to the pieces of our heart that currently attach themselves to this broken world.

When we open ourselves up and provide more space for Jesus we receive his gift of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit takes away much of the emotional baggage we have held onto for our too long. It is our comfort in tribulation and it is our joy in celebration.

Sadly few who will read this, have the Holy Spirit active and present. I pray this changes.

Desiring to know our Triune God is the true meaning of balance. No peace on this earth is greater felt than when in harmony with the wisdom and application of the wisdom we receive from our God in these three forms.

Rejoicing In Hope

Hope is part of the glorious plan God has for our lives that have yet to come. It is a miraculous gift and the cure for most of what ails you.

“For on this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience” – Romans 8:24

As one who has suffered from anxiety and much worry, I can speak first hand that when we lose hope we put our minds at risk of sickness and disease. We desperately need hope.

Hope is hydration for the Spirit

“When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time he asked him “do you want to get well?” – John 5:6

The ugliest part of depression is that it makes us want to “sit” in our state of mind. Compare yourself to the man who was asked if he wanted to get well. How many times have you been asked this (possibly with different words), either to yourself or by a friend, and responding in a way that justifies your feelings or places blame?

We ask again, do you want to get well?

Pain is promised on this earth, not just to you but to all. It’s unavoidable and the ones that try to create a life that avoids it are some of the most depressed people I know.

It’s what we do with that pain that matters. It is how we live in that moment, that we either smile or frown, that makes our steps lighter or heavier, and live life with and without the burden.

“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” Romans – 8:18

It’s all temporary anyways, what is to come in eternity is so much more powerful than the microscopic pain we feel now.

Hold tight to hope and rejoice in it daily.